This is NOT a competition
I went to my Thursday KenPo class today. I wasn't feeling in top form (chugging Mylanta before class is never a good sign - darned spagetti for lunch), and this was the final before the test look. The warm up was slightly different from our usual - 60 pushups, 50 crunches, 30 obliques each side, 20 extension crunches, 20 squat-thrusts (when I do deep squats), and 100 jumping jacks. When it was time for the water break, I went into the bathroom and tried not to throw up. A couple of sips of water and back in I went (and no, I didn't throw up... just really, really felt like it).
After some rounds of blocking, kicking and punching, we split up to practice our kenpos, combinations, and self-defenses. I was working with Lauren again, and Dakota joined us. We went through everything several times, with instructors checking in to watch or demonstrate or submit to having whatever it was done to them. I felt off-balance and slightly dizzy, which didn't help me much.When class was lined up at the end, they said they wanted to see my stuff again on Saturday and would decide about the testing then.
But you know what? This is not a competition. I was already feeling a little not-ready for the test - not because I don't know the material, but because my physical stamina isn't up to snuff yet. The test is VERY physically demanding, and honestly, if I take the Saturday class before the test, I'm not going to make it through the test itself. So I think I will not test this Saturday.
There will be another test in July, which is not that far away (not the usual 2-3 months gap), and I will spend this time getting myself as physically ready for this as I am able. Yes, keep practicing the material... but walk/run, lift weights and do more bag workouts.
And when the July test rolls around, I will feel strong and competent and capable. I'm better than I was, but not where I would like to be.