Tuesday, November 09, 2010

First Day of Truth

A while ago, I came across this idea on my friend Flutter's blog. An interesting and introspective writing exercise that may wind up revealing more of myself than I even know.

Day One: Something you hate about yourself.

Sad to say, there are so many things...

I hate what has happened to my body. It is not as healthy as it could and should be because I love food that is bad for you and hate exercise that is good for you. I am trying to rectify that, but it is such a struggle.

I hate that I stopped learning for the joy of learning so long ago. My brain has rusted and learning new things now is so hard! I continue to try to oil my brain, but I miss those days of effortless absorbtion.

I hate that I get angry so easily. I am impatient with animals and people that I love. I try to hide it behind a placid face wearing a slight smile, but inside I can feel my blood boiling and a toxic cloud spreading throughout my body.

These are the things that spring to mind immediately. I am working on these things as best I can and I can see some improvement in all of them - but I really hate that I have to do this work at all. I want to be calm, content, fit, healthy and knowledgeable naturally.

But it is not to be.

If you want to participate, here is the list of writing assignments. They don't have to be done every single day, but do write them in order.

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 → A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself


Hoosier Girl said...

I put this on my blog too.

Great idea.


Anonymous said...

I hate that all the new things to learn involve a computer! Computers are difficult to understand.

Anonymous said...

I looked over the list... I am not emotionally healthy enough to participate.


Jan n Jer said...

This sounds like a good project.. it can be very good for the soul!

Chris Sexton said...

If I can find the inner strength to do this, I'd like to...some of it would be pretty tough, though...hmmm.....