Wednesday, February 08, 2012
Time to re-adjust my thinking
Last night, I bought a couple of these. And this morning I took the test - NOT PREGNANT.
And suddenly, I realized that I'm going to have to change my way of thinking. For the last 35 or so years, being two weeks late meant you were more than likely pregnant - but as I look forward to my 50th birthday next month, I have to acknowledge that my childbearing years are almost definitely over. There are people out there who get pregnant naturally after 50, but it doesn't happen most of the time without some sort of medical intervention (Google led me to all kinds of information about 50+ pregnancy).
I didn't think it likely for me, but I know someone who recently had a "menopause baby" so I wanted to be very, very sure.
I was relieved to get the negative result. My husband and son were even MORE relieved. But along with that relief was a little sadness. I never thought I'd have my son and realizing that any opportunity to have another baby is probably past kind of brings home the fact that I'm aging.
I don't feel like I'm that old, but I guess I am. And really - that's a good thing. I'm enjoying this aging process as a rule, but I never know when I need to change my way of thinking about things.